but here’s the link I found…it this what you meant?

http://www.hopeunlimitedproductions.com/movies.html

I’ve been in contact with Ms. Darden regarding being in the film myself when things get rolling again with our recession.

This may be *the* documentary of our time for GLBT people. It seems that way, at least to me.

I read an article about the making of this film and there were several invitations for “the ex-gay movement” to give their side of things, but they did not agree to be in the film. I was very sad to read that just minutes before viewing the film myself.

You are right, it did seem mocking toward my dear friends who, like you, hold to their convictions and faith of celibacy and change.

In the audience with me at the southern theater were the parents of Gene Robinson. The sweet old couple received a standing ovation.

And sitting next to me was a dear friend and former “ex-gay” ministry participant.

First let me say, that no one has done a truly non-biased documentary on this subject. This film invoked a lot of emotion from the entire audience. My friend next to me especially. And I cried with her. The pain that has been brought to those of us caught in this struggle is unknown to those who haven’t walked in our shoes. And neither “side” should be mocked.

I don’t think hate should be repaid with hate either, and the opening scene with Anita Baker was shocking. And I now question if that opening scene with Baker, had been taken out of context, and I now wonder if it (in the time it happened) had anything to do with the assassination of Harvey Milk. Baker was the “poster girl” of the anti-gay laws trying to be passed in the mid 70s in CA. I remember them. It was the first time I ever asked my parents what it meant if I had a gay teacher.

In the film Milk, Milk’s friends are shown pushing pies in each others faces. After seeing this in the film, I immediately remembered the clip with Baker. I just don’t know if my assumption is accurate. But it makes me see that shocking scene in a whole different light.

Forgive my rambling thoughts here…

There are no great examples in our media of those who adhere to the “ex-gay” movement in the ways I know many of my dearest friends have.

The closest thing I have ever seen was a character on the F/X Network TV Show, The Shield. His name was Julian and his character is what made me become a devoted fan of the show. Fans didn’t like him overall. But I loved him for following his faith. When the series ended, it showed Julian as being married and the issue very much unresolved. A perfect ending.

I attempted to video document my journey through the ex-gay movement. I also attempted to document stories of those around me. But even I was moved to be biased toward the idea of change. Basically, it would be better called propaganda.

Too bad our human nature gets in the way of being an unbiased reporter.